Here is one of my alters *cough cough* Sayori *cough cough* being depressed and writing poems, enjoy




Only If It Was Real..

I tuck myself under a blanket.
I take a deeper breaths.
I feel my body unwinding.

It's past midnight. The moon hovers above like a cold, lifeless flame. Nothing but silence could be heard. Im all alone. I start uncontrollably crying. I desperately grab onto the nearest pillow and squeeze as tight as I could.

'Why is every day so hard?'


I can only lay there in a pathetic, lonely, depressing state

I see you.
You're standing right in front of me.
You wrap your arms around me.
Your hugs are so warm that I feel my heart melting. You run your fingers through my hair. I've never felt so happy before in my life.

We sit down.
It's just the two of here.
We admire the beautiful sunset.

Just as a light zephyr, brushed against my face, you hold my hand. I lean on your shoulder. We make eye contact. Your eyes are stunning.

Everything about you is perfect.
Your smile is so comforting.
It makes me forget about all my insecurities and worries.

I want to stay like this forever.
Imagine all the memories we could make.

I Love You.

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It was all a dream. You're not real. None of this is will be. You will never be real
I wake up still hugging the pillow. It's stained with tears. I get out of ~~my head~~ bed, lethargic from lack of sleep and heartache a lot of heartache.

I have to face her my cruel reality again.
Without you.




Darkness

The darkness is seeping in.
The light is creeping away.
Im scared, only one way out yeah im listening.
They are all around me but i see a figure in the middle,
It's MC the man of my dreams.
To me he's god and i am just little..
It's the riddle....
Will he ever come back or is this just the end?
I want things back the way they were, is he more than just a friend...
I dont know im so confused.

Tears coming down like a toxic ooze.
My life is just a ruse...
I always loose.
But to me he makes me feel better when he says i love you....




Mr Dust

They’re all around me, the figures, and there’s no escape.
They’re my dark and gloomy thoughts, I thought I knew them from somewhere…
Wait… Who is that? In the centre? Oh… it’s…it’s him! It’s really him! My crush! The man of my dreams!
His eyes are still so pretty- just how I remember him!
Will he ever come back? Or has he become another piece of dust?
Another piece of dirty, irrelevant dust?!

Don’t be dust.
Don’t leave me.
Tears, my tears say hello!
Tears like toxic ooze!
Have I lost again?
Have you drifted away?
Mr Dust.
Mr Dust, ĐØ ɎØɄ ⱠØVɆ ₥Ɇ ₮ØØ?

𝒹&#𝓍𝟣𝐹𝟥𝟨𝒞; 𝓎&#𝓍𝟤𝟨𝟤𝐹;𝓊 𝓁&#𝓍𝟣𝐹𝟥𝟨𝒜;𝓋𝑒 𝓂𝑒 𝓉&#𝓍𝟣𝐹𝟥𝟨𝒞;&#𝓍𝟣𝐹𝟦𝟫𝐸;&#𝓍𝐵𝐹;


P̵̜̞͛̈́̌̽͗̈́̕͠l̷̹̤̺̹͍̈́͊̚ȩ̷̳̲̦̤̒̔̆̈́͋̍̇̂̎̚a̸̬̦͕̾̉̿̊͒͋͌̆s̷̯̳̝̠͎̲̫͔͙̀͋e̷̺̲̖̦̐̑̍͘̚͠ ̷̤̻̫̗̟̠̲́̉s̷̝̫̠͉̈́͒̅̅̽̔a̶͈̕y̵̛̖̱͕̳̔̓͆̐͝ ̸̤͇̟͙̂̊̔͆̈́̓̚ͅy̶̪͇̲͎̭͚̹̺͋́͛̃͐͗̓͘ơ̶̼̫̼̙̊̓͋̂̾͘͜u̷̡͎̱͇̹̥̭͍̍̓̃̀ ̸̡̦͑̉̐̑̏̇͠l̸͙̠̥̫͚̇̈́̃̉͑̄̾̍͝ŏ̵̞͉̟̺̪̻̜̏̏̀̍͑̆̓̓ͅv̸̮̠̻̄̊̈́̎̆͗̀͝ͅḛ̷͊ ̸̢̿̄̿͌͒̏͊̌̾͝m̵̡̨̨̦̮͓̙̽̓͂́̆͗̿̂̚͜͜ͅȩ̴̢͔͕͙̩̖́̑̕͜͠ͅ ̵͖̱̘̗̯̯̝͋̒͝t̷̡̫͕͎̯̲͈͎̒̓͒̔͛̉͗̚͜͝͝ơ̵̲͚̘͖̼͙̯̻͆͋̔̈́͛̎̓̕̚͜͜o̴̝̻͎̔̌̔͌̃͌̚͜ͅ

Hxppy Thxughts




Rainy Clouds

Why wont they go away?
Why. Wont. They. Go. Away?

Hover over me, darken my day.
Even when I try to run away.
For everyone life's just a play...
Then why not for me?
The world's turning grey?

How is it that I went astray?
Droplets of rain poison my day.
Droplets of rain poison my... day...
Hopes and dreams of sand and day,
Washed away.
All by unforgiving waves.

Why wont the rain clouds go away?
A strange obsession that keeps clawing away.
Is love for you what's keeping me sane?
Or is this love is what keeps me awake?
Through sleepless nights and lazy days...

Why wont the rain clouds go away?
Unresolved feelings, a twisted maze.
Running in circles, confused and dazed.
Cant stop this feeling..
Just got to find a way to make it stop...
and.. leave nothing.
But happy thoughts, happy thoughts, happy thoughts...
Happy thoughts... H a p p y t h o u g h t s


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Get. OUT. OF. MY. HEAD.