"Am I too broken for your love..?"
"Is it wrong to envy the one you love the most?"
my tragic little baby…
you’ll be happy one day :(
The world you lived in now was nothing but a wasteland. You were starting to think Sebastian was right, maybe his plans had some truth to them. You weren’t sure if you felt anger or regret in what you’d let happen to him, all you knew was that he hated you now and that he’d never forgive you.
It wasn’t long before most of the lions in the valley and caves passed away due to sickness or left for better lands, what remains is nothing worth fighting for anymore. How could this have happened? If Kadabra saw you now, would he still love you? Were you even the lion he fell in love with anymore? You.. You didn’t know. You just feel.. empty.
It wasn’t long before you started to give in to the loneliness you were feeling, desperately trying to bring back the feelings of how it was before by digging up graves. You craved interaction with another lion more than you craved living itself now.
You had been sobbing next to a corpse of a lion you didn’t know, you never would get to know him. Was that for the better? If he knew you would he turn up his nose in disgust at what you were doing? The things you’ve done? The lions you sent away to die? Maybe.. how could you be sure. One day you were on top of the world with a lion who’d sworn to marry you and the next you were cuddling against the corpse of a lion who passed long before you.
Eventually you must have fallen asleep. You dreamed of the cubs you’d never have, the life you’d never get to live, the pride you’d never go home to, the family you couldn’t go back to, how did it get so.. terrible?
You dreaded waking up as you knew you’d have to face the day and could no longer find comfort in hiding in empty dreams and pretty lies.
“I know how you feel.”
Five words spoken in the darkness was all it took for you to snap awake, feeling disoriented and even more tired than before. You felt the same cold fur up against your side but it was no longer laying still. The lion lay on his side, looking up at the starless sky with his brows furrowed. He purred softly but showed no other signs of being alive.
Well fuck, you’ve finally snapped haven’t you?
Took you long enough, I mean, you were cuddling against a corpse for goodness sake.
“What?” You sniffled and stared up at the lion who simply gave you a pained smile. “I know how you feel.” He repeated, turning his head to look at you with his clouded over, pinkish eyes. “I don’t-“ “I know.” You felt yourself start to shake and your eyes watering, tears threatening to spill at any moment. He sighed, “You don’t need to understand.” he continued to stare at you with perhaps the kindest look you’ve been given in a long while. You sniffled but gave up on trying to comprehend what was happening and before you knew it you broke down completely, snuggling your head under the lion’s chin as you cried.
You stayed there for a while, waiting for him to tell you something to make you feel better, to give you some advice and tell you lies till you stopped crying but that moment never came. It would probably never come and yet you would still wait.
“It’s not going to be okay.” “Don’t say that- I-“ “You haven’t eaten for six days now.” He turned his head to look back up at the sky, his words were only another reminder of something else you’ve lost. Beauty. Your pelt used to shine like the shiny rocks you collected as a cub, now, looking as dull as the corpses you dug up. “I know.” Was all you managed to get out before blinking hard to stop yourself from crying.
“Why don’t you leave?”
I don’t know how, I don’t want to admit it’s over, I just want to close my eyes and pretend it’s all a dream that I’ll wake up from.
“I don’t know.”
I’m so scared of moving on, I’m so scared of the future, I can’t admit they’re dead, I don’t want to leave them behind, I don’t want to fuck things up again.
“But you’re suffering.”
The lion looked back down at you, an unreadable look across his face. You sat beside him, silent for an uncomfortably long time before you spoke, your voice just above a whisper.
And then you were both silent, he no longer purred and you no longer sniffled. You should have gotten used to silence by now, you’ve been alone for so long that it should be normal by now. And yet here you were, once again waiting for him to say words that you know will never come. You didn’t even think he was real, this could quite possibly be something your mind had made up to cope with the fact you were so utterly alone. Did it mean anything if he said something?
You had no idea. That was beginning to become the new normal for you.
“Will you ever move on?” He spoke slowly and cautiously, his words making you wish home hadn’t have spoken at all. The honest truth was that you wouldn’t, couldn’t, how could you possibly move on? You lived here, loved here, played here, laughed here, fought here and cried here. Would moving on even be possible? You shook your head slowly and looked up at him with sad eyes. He frowned in response.
“I was in love once. It was the best thing that ever happened to me.” He huffed and looked away. You turned your head towards him as he looked down at his paws, tracing circles into the dirt below him with a claw. “It was the one thing that mattered. When he passed, I didn’t know what to do with myself. I promised him I’d never love another man, he promised me that there were other loves out there. I couldn’t move on. I stayed behind and let the world pass me by. I let everyone go on without me.’
The lion sighed, his head lowering. ‘Now I always think of the life I missed out on. He was right, there were other loves out there. When I look back at the lives I could have lived I see ones where I’m happy. I marry a lioness called Siamese and we have four cubs. We never start a pride but we never needed one to keep us happy. In another I save a hyena from drowning in a flood, years later we’re snuggled under a large acai tree as the rain pours down on the grassland.’
He turned to you, a look of regret across his face.
‘All those lives don’t exist now, I never found love, I never had cubs, I died alone and I died unhappy. All because I couldn’t move on.’
You listen to his tale with a saddened look on your face, hearing a lion very much like yourself describe something so familiar was enough to get you teary once again.
The life he lived.. you didn’t want to end up like that.
It sounded horrible.
Was that really where you were heading? To die alone? To live a life not worth living?
“You can see the future?” He nodded slowly. “What’s mine?” He frowned, “It’s best not to disclose things of that nature-“ “Please.” You look up at him with a pleading look in your eyes, in all honesty you were desperate to know if you really could move on or if he was just bullshitting.
The lion sighs. “I guess I could bend the rules just this once.” You purr out a thanks and think about what you want to ask him, it came to your mind almost immediately.
“What happens if I stay here?”
He stares at you blankly for a while, his unblinking pink eyes boring holes into yours. “If you stay here you die within the next week. You fall asleep in an open grave and vultures mistake you for carrion. You were too weak to fight them off and it’s a long death, you’re dead seven hours after the initial attack.”
You wince, that sounded horrible.. Would you really die so soon? You felt pathetic that it was to vultures of all things.
“And if I don’t?”
SCREW YOU GUYS, I HAVE MY FILTHY MITTENS ON A GROUPIE MWAHAHA
AH WAIT SHIT I NEED TO SAVE UP FOR THE SPOTTED MOD SHIT I FORGOT ABOUT THAT :( FINNA BE BROKE
Hanahaki you little legend your first litter and a natural double rosette? I love you so god damn much.
Changed base to albino for December, may or may not change back I'm not sure yet...
combo factor base / mane shape
14 marking slots
nacre/another pink combo factor base (might keep ice for a while though, not too sure…) will get there eventually but keeping albino/ice for now
all rosette opacity to 100
all marking opacity to 100 / ONE MORE NON ROS MAKRING THEN DONE
quartz lace to 1% (i don’t like it but i’ll keep it…) DONE
maybe try and get briar margay in slot 14? that might be nice |replaced with silver fawn|REPLACED WITH ROSE PINK QUAIL FLECKS
fill out remaining marking slots with feline orchid apps (dang mon this is gonna be expensive asf, we don’t got that much money man)
nose changed from apricot to butterfly, i love butterfly skin so much
added esker dinictus, can’t see it since it’s on a low slot and covered up
EXPECTING THIS TOO BE AT LEAST A 90GB+ PROJECT SO IM GONNA HAVE TO STOCK UP ON GMO COWS, GNAWS AND OTHER STUFF THIS EVENT
I lied it's like a sell all your internal organs to try and fund it kind of project.
mut repped onto gen 4 bisected pie
hoping to get mut rep to 1k+ stats or just keep patrolling him until this lion that’s kinged as the appearance rep dies.
WAIT WAIT WAIT I DON'T WANT A BISECTED ANYMORE I WANT A SPOTTED BUT THERE'S NO ACTIVE GEN 1 SPOTTED KINGS IN THE GAME SO I EITHER NEED TO HAVE A GEN 3 KING OR BUY A MOD AND HAVE A GEN 1 KING AAAAGEAFESGE
GOT THAT GEN 1 BITCH HELL YEAH
He got a nose scratch from sparring... Hmm...
"B-But Sebastian- I'm not a c-c-cub for crying about it! It's just, she- she was s-so perfect-!" "SHUT THE FUCK UP YOU LIZARD." Hanahaki only sobbed louder when Sebastian lost his shit and swiped at his face. When it bled Sebastian simply rolled his eyes and told him to 'man up or I'll feed you to the Cave freaks'. Hanahaki continued to sob, his tears flowing red from the fresh cut to his snout. Yeah. He's not gonna man up any time soon.
Breed to Royal, Hellraiser, Thick, Tufted, Sideburn, or Barbary mane type for a chance at a Royal mane shape.
Breed to a royal maned female for a chance at the Mane Imperial mutation.
Ice x Cocoa|Ice x Ethereal|Ice x Pearl|Ice x Slate| All for the chance of Caringorm!
Ice x Divine|Ice x Ebony| All for the chance of Elysian!
Ice x Orchid| For a chance at Rime(Can ONLY be bred during wet season during day time)!!!
Ice x Albino| For a chance at Snowflake(Can ONLY be bred during wet season)!!!
You heard last night that ***Hanahaki cleared some fallen branches and brush from a path near the den. Now the lionesses can drag prey back easier! Nice!
Stawp it… what a ladies man 🤭
ugh got silver fawn.. it’s rma only so i’ll keep but lower opacity ugh
we are keeping him. he can stay. he’s like the tumor in my brain, i hate it but it just won’t leave ♥️♥️♥️
got rid of silver fawn and replaced it with rose pink quail flecks, i love rose pink sm 💕💕💕
3x marking opacity changers and 1x marking applicator till markings are complete!!! getting a nacre base this event
noctis back added
all 3 marking opacity changers added, bought spotted mod and now have 4gb left over for rma spree